swirly brain!

i know i've been the absentee blogger again. i don't wanna be but somehow it just keeps ending up that way. sigh.

my year is going out with a bang i guess. things have been crazy - and i mean KU-RAY-ZEE - these past couple of months. if it's not one thing, it's another, or another or another. the list seems neverending and i'm just surprised that i'm still here to kinda sorta tell about it. and i say kinda sorta because actually telling about it all would take pages and pages and hours and hours of my time and yours (whoever you are reading this and i do hope someone is... lol). my husband is driving me nuts. and i mean nuts. and from what he says i'm driving him nuts, too. and not just the kinda nuts where you're like "oh he makes me crazy but i love him." i'm talking the kinda nuts where you're like "hmmm... should we really even be together?".

we are supposed to be leaving to go out of town today to visit my family and i have no motivation - ZERO - to do it. it's not that i don't wanna see them i just don't feel like the long drive. it's five to seven hours depending on how many stops you make and the idea of being locked in the car that long - with my husband and my wild children - is just not that appealing to me. but i'm gonna do it because i should and maybe once we get there - i'm hoping - that things will start looking up. 

my ticker might tell this story better than i can but i haven't lost anything - NOTHING - in about two months. yeah. TWO FREAKING MONTHS!!!! what's up with that? well, i know what's up with that. it's all on me. i made the decision not to get another fill til after the holidays. thankfully though i didn't GAIN anything over the holidays. now they are almost over (new years is coming) and then i will be back on the track. i will go get a fill and get back to my exercising and eating better. i will dammit!

i still haven't been to a zumba class - my friends suck and either they are too broke - i mean, really??? it's only $5!!!! - or too full of excuses to wanna go with me. sigh! then the one chick that i coulda gone with went and got pregnant so now she's outta the runnings for a workout buddy, too. sigh! i'm happy for her though. this baby has been a long time coming.

i talked to another friend of mine about hitting the gym after the new year and the kids get back to school. she said yes but she's kinda flakey sometimes so we will see if that pans out.

i'm thinking of purchasing that zumba fitness for the wii. anyone tried it? it got good reveiws at several different places online so that makes me feel pretty good about it. plus you do it in your own home which is another plus for me since i feel wierd going and doing it at a place without buddies to cheer each other on.

i've only got 34 pounds left to go to reach my goal and i need to get outta this rut that i'm in.