can someone mail me a quiche???

i'm serious. i want one of those quiches grace blogged about. lol

so...updates on today and my tight fill....

this morning i had some hot tea (suggested by my doc) and some guafinesin (spelled that wrong i know) to help with the mucus. midday i had a chocolate shake (great choice, right?) and that went ok. then this afternoon i had about four to five bites of scrambled eggs. that was all i could do. it was probably about 4oz though since the bites were bigger than they should have been. i chewed really well though. i was glad i was able to get the eggs down but at the same time i wanted to eat more. also at the same time, i was doing some major pbing on the way to pick up my kids.

i had some milk this evening and that went ok. and some real smushed up beans with a little cheese. that went ok, too. i can't eat much though. about four bites and i'm done. the feeling is similar to what it was right after i started eating mushies after the surgery. so i guess it's ok. 

i can't gulp water which sucks and i'm spazzed out i'm not drinking enough. well, i know i'm not. i'm just spazzing about it. lol

i'm eager to see if the scale has a new number for me in the morning. i can only hope! it's like christmas eve again!!!! 

guess i'm gonna go to bed now. early i know. 

oh yeah.... don't forget to  mail me a quiche!!! =P

a little updater

thanks for comments on my last  and confused post. last night i was able to finish that glass of milk i mentioned and i was also able to get down some ice cream. yes, i know, what a great food choice, right? well, i was liquids only and needed to have something with form to it. it went down better than i expected although there was some wierd feelings afterwards and a couple times i thought i was going to pb on it. 

this morning i took a sip of water and it went ok but i could feel instant tightness. i'm not even going to attempt to eat breakfast. no way jose! and my doc told me that yesterday, too. she was like if it's that tight when you wake up then just wait a couple hours before you try to eat anything. she also told me to drink something warm and to start taking mucinex in addition to zyrtec to try and dry up any mucus collections i might be getting in my pouch during the night. mucus collections! can you say gross???

good news though. i stepped on the scale this morning and i am 184. yesterday in the doc's office they said i was 186. my scale is three pounds heavier than the doc's office and i alway account for that but that 184 is after the accounting. so according to the scales i lost 2 pounds overnight. woohoo!!!! finally back to that 184 i saw for a bit as it ran away and disappeared for a while. hopefully it won't disappear again except maybe for me hitting 183 and - gasp! dare i say it???? - the 170's!!!!!

 i clearly remember a day back when i was in the 170's. it was about 7 years ago and i was wearing a size 14. i think i weighed like 174 or 175. a 14 i tell you! and i remember having this conversation with a friend of mine talking about how "fat" i was. that makes me want to gag now. wow. if only i knew then what i know now. oh how i welcome those 170's with open arms now! =P

too full or what?

so i went to the doc today and told them of my issues.... i can never eat breakfast cuz the band is too tight but it gets looser as the day progresses and then i can usually eat a decent dinner. and sometimes a lot more than i should be able to. the last time i was in there was three months ago when i got a baby fill (1/2 a cc) and i've only lost 5 pounds in that amount of time. the doc said that she didn't think i needed a fill since i sometimes had issues with some food and asked what i thought. i told her i didn't know and what did she think. she said we could go ahead and do a small 1/2 cc fill and see what happens. if it's too much i can always take it back ok. so i said ok and hopped on the table. it was the best fill i've had so far. not even a pinch when the needle went in! 

i asked her about the b12 stuff and she gave me a shot. i was hoping to feel some great effects from it but alas, i have felt nothing and even came home and took a two hour nap this evening! sigh!!! she told me to let her know what the b12 does and if i want some she can write me a script for it. woohoo!!!

so here's where i get confused. i was able to drink water in the doc's office just fine. as i continued to drink the rest of the afternoon and now this evening i'm noticing that these liquids aren't going down that well. they kinda sit in there for a bit and a couple times i've almost had them come back up. i just tried some milk and the jury is still out on whether or not it's really gone down or not. does this mean i'm too full? i have to be on liquids for the rest of this evening and then i can try mushies tomorrow. i'm nervous as hell about the mushies if milk is being this sluggish. 

what do ya'll think? i need some more experienced banders' advice!!!!

fill day!

well.... maybe.....

i was trying to read and catch up on everyone but i'm strapped for time so i had to stop and will try and come back later.

thanks for the nice comments that were left on my christmas 2009 vs. christmas 2010 photos. i pasted those two pics side by side on my fridge door as a reminder everytime i go there to get something to eat. lol

so today i'm supposed to go get a fill at 2pm. not sure how i feel about this. i have to be on liquids for 24hrs when i get fills and usually i have a few days to a week to mentally prepare for my liquid diet. yesterday the doc called and had to get me in today so i'm like eek!!!! i know i need the fill though as i've been able to eat like a cow lately. i will miss eating like this but know that it's what got me where i was and i don't ever wanna be there again so fill 'er up!!!! 

after reading amy's post about the b-12, i might just ask my doc about it today. i know he gives shots to some of his patients but they've never mentioned it with me. i have, however, felt really tired the past few months and don't quite get why. if he won't give it to me i'm going to find it at the vitamin store. i will have the b-12!!!! lol

ok...well, time to go get dressed. my day is filled - and i do mean filled - with appts today between myself and my two kids! wow. here we go....

just some stuff... and nsv and a couple pics!

ok.... so..... i have another nsv to report!!!

we've been trying to get more fit as a family. as i said before, my husband has been on sick leave for two months and just went back to work. my son is on meds that make him eat a lot and he's not as active as he should be (he's 11). and my daughter... well, she's active and skinny as all get out so she really doesn't need anything but anyway..... and of course  me.... i'm the banded one needed to lose these last thirty something pounds to reach my goal.

so night before last we decide to use the netflix to tv through the wii and do a family workout. we chose a cardio dancing workout. it had good music and lots of funky moves. my son got sent to his room shortly after we started it becuase he couldn't stop laughing and disrupting everyone else's workouts - sigh! the other three of us stuck it out and did the moves. even the ones that we didn't quite get. what can i say? none of us are dancers! lol 

it was a mini workout. a ten minute part of a 10 minute at a time exercise video. well, about 6 minutes in my husband couldn't take it anymore. he had to sit down. all huffing and puffing. my daughter and i kept going and finished out the workout. then we decided to do another fifteen minutes or so of another type of workout. i tried and tried to get my husband to join in but he said there was no way. he had had enough. he said he was "wore out".

so here i am.... thinking to myself, "omg! is this really happening? my military husband is worn out and here i am still going strong? are you kidding me???" well, it wasn't a joke. it was real. i was making it!!!! it made me feel great!

we talked about it later (my husband and i) and i told him i totally expected that i would be the one left behind by him not vice versa. he said he thought that, too, but it didn't turn out that way. i am still shocked.

it's two days later and i can still feeel the effects of that workout. we're going to do another one tonight i think.

last night i went online and ordered zumba transformation set on ebay. it comes with six different workouts and the sticks. my daughter is excited about this cuz she has begged and begged to do zumba with me (which i still haven't gone to a class yet) and i have to keep telling her that if i go she can't go cuz kids can't go. so now she's excited i'll be doing it at home so she can do it, too.

i'm so glad that she's active and likes working out. hopefully she won't end up down the obese path that i did. 

i'm so ready to lose these last 30 something pounds to reach my goal. now if only my mind would think about that when i'm eating those reeses cups i'm addicted to right now. sigh!!!

so here are some progress pics....

this was last christmas 2009

and this is this christmas 2010:

so there's the evidence of 56 pounds gone! it makes me feel good to see these pics!

well...

so here it is... thursday morning.... i'm sitting here in my living room. it's messy. messy as heck. see, i have this housecleaning schedule that i like to try and stick by. we were out of town over the holidays and i was on track monday and tuesday. but i slipped up on wednesday and well, with four of us living here all it took was that one day for things to get out of hand. sigh! life with a husband and kids, i guess. lol

so yesterday my husband came home from work at lunch and we walked the neighborhood together. it was nice. the walking of course cuz it was exercise and also the time with my husband. surprisingly we didn't fight or argue or anything. it was nice. oddly enough he got more winded than i did. you'd think that wouldn't happen seeing as how he's the military member and all and they are supposed to stay fit and all this. but well, he's been out on sick leave for two months and monday was his first day back at work. he hasn't done a lick of PT while off and so i guess he's out of shape or whatever. i felt bad for him huffing along while i was making it better than he was, but at the same time it was like a nsv for me. i mean, i was always the bigger one, the heavier one, and the more out of shape one. i'm not saying that i think i'm in better shape than he is now... but i'm not the bigger one anymore. i'm not the heavier one anymore. and yesterday i was the one who handled the power walk the best and that was like a victory for me. proof that i'm getting somewhere!

i renewed my netflix account yesterday and added a ton of workout videos to my queue. workout videos aren't really my workout method of choice but at the same time i do enjoy them and they will suffice for now. i also connected our wii to the internet so i can instantly watch some of them right here on my big screen. don't even have to wait for them to arrive. that was a nice feature. my kids will also enjoy that they can watch whatever instantly too now that it's all hooked up.

i haven't heard or seen hide nor hair of the friend who is supposed to be my workout buddy come the new year. it's like the new year came and went and well, so did she. lol i don't wanna be that person that harrasses someone into working out with them when they really don't want to but at the same time, I WANT A WORKOUT BUDDY DAMMIT! why is it so hard to find one and keep one? my husband is totally willing to do the job which i guess is fine but i wanted a friend. a girl! someone i can chat with while we work out. girl talk and stuff. but i guess i better take what i can get and if that's my husband, then so be it. lol we are talking about meeting up at the gym some days, too. so that's cool i guess.

i guess i don't have anything else to report on. i need to get my butt off this couch. do a workout. clean my house. stuff like that!!!

it's here

it's here. the new year. actually it's come and gone. i mean, it is the 3rd. speaking of which...today is the birthday of a very very dear friend of mine. the friend that inspired me to get the lapband. she got hers in sept of 2009 (i think that was it) and when she did it i was soooo negative. i told her it was stupid, the "easy way out", and that i'd never do such a thing to myself. after the surgery i was supportive though. and i watched her lose. and i found myself jealous. very jealous. then i started thinking.... then i started researching. then i started talking to her about my feelings about it. and then i made the decision. she was sooo supportive and did remind me here and there about my previous feelings about the band. but today i'm 56 pounds lighter and i can say it's the best thing i ever did. and i never would have done it had it not been for her. my friend. my sister by friendship. she recently moved to alaska (we're military wives) and i do miss her so! sniff sniff.

ok..... lemme get a grip here.... lol

so it IS the new year and i just went and read up and commented on some of ya'll's blogs. i'm gonna try to be better blogger this year. =)

so the scale says i've gained three pounds over the holidays. but i'm gonna get back to where i was and i'm gonna get even lower than that. i'm determined. i'm ready and i'm gonna do it! my band is here to help me and i love it!