going nuts!

so.... I GOT THE FILL.  well, a tiny one that it was. she only wanted to do a 1/2 cc since she says that she thinks i'm having sinus drainage issues that could be filling up my pouch sometimes. so she told me to take my liquid zyrtec religiously everyday and we will see if i get another 1/2 cc at my next appt in one month. she also wanted to know why i hadn't been in for four months. yeah. i know. compliance is key and part of that is going to my appts like i'm supposed to!

yesterday i went to do my workout dvd's. finally got some motivation. well, guess what? i couldn't find a one of them anywhere. yeah... what's up with that? so i had to find one available to watch online. so i did a one mile powerwalk and that was good. and then yesterday evening i went bike riding with my daughter, her friend, and her friend's mom (who is my new friend btw) so that was good, too. yay!!! i'm back on the exercise wagon!

my son is currently driving me insane right now. it's one thing after another with him. he's special needs and i know i need to be thankful that he's not paralyzed or has some horrible disease or something but sometimes it's just really hard not to freak out at things that go awry. 

so i told my doc yesterday that i'm having a problem. i've heard of it before. see my banded friend has it, too. she went from a size 18/20 to a size 8/10 and still thinks she's fat and tries to wear my size 16 clothes. i tell her shes' nuts. well, i realized that i kinda do the same thing. i'm like i feel fatter now, then i did 51 pounds heavier. how does that make any sense at all? she says it's quite common and of course, a mental thing.

i didn't really notice much of a difference with my baby fill. but we will see.

oh. and they gave me a print out of my pre op pic that they have in my file. i about died when i saw it. it doesn't even look like me. i'll have to post some comparisons later.