1 more down!!!!

well, i've pretty much totally given up on the whole "not weighing everyday" thing. yeah.... i can't help myself. the scale calls my name every morning and i go to it. lol

but guess what.... weighed myself this morning and guess what????

ANOTHER POUND DOWN! WOOHOO! 216!!!!

nothing new

so i'm having a hard time getting in a lotta protein. i've read where some of ya'll are getting like 50 to 100 grams a day. today i've gotten 28 grams. that's it. and i'm getting in meats at every meal. so what am i doing wrong?? i've been eating late breakfast though and skipping lunch. not on purpose but because i get busy or i'm not hungry. is that the issue you think?

had my second follow up with my surgeon today. they said i've only lost like two pounds since my last visit two weeks ago. that's a pound a week. not sure how i feel about that. i think it's really four pounds though because i weighed this morning (sans the heavy clothing i had on at the dr office) and i was still at my 217. i asked the nurse if that was normal and she said it varies from person to person. so i guess it'll suffice. it has to.

i've started logging my food again because i had gotten outta hand with the snacking. this will help me keep better track and etc.

i'm really irritable tonight. think i'm pms'ing and everyone in my house could go fly away for a while right now and i'd be perfectly content. lol

will i have any hair left after today???

i could strangle my son right about now. he's been trying my nerves and patience since the minute i got him from school. a mom can only be tested so much, ya know? sigh!

i'm not feeling much motivation today. been having some pains in my chest area. it's wierd. not sure what to make of it.

did i say that my son is driving me nuts? it's still going on. right now. can i hide???

anyway... i'm tired and not feeling very motivated today. i think i said that already but oh well. said it again. i haven't walked or done my elliptical yet and i'm feeling overly bad about that. wondering if i could maybe do 30 minutes on it since it's getting dark outside and i don't have a treadmill so walking isn't an option. wonder if i could make 30 minutes.

so i forgot to write about my shopping trip over the weekend. we went to old navy to get some of those $5 classic polos that were on sale on saturday. well, as i figured, they were all sold out of those great $5 polos. but we did find some other good deals. shirts for the kids and the hubby. and i even got two for me. before i was an xxl there and guess what i am now? an xl! only one x. yay! it was a nice feeling.

when we got to the checkout i gave the guy a coupon i had. it was for 30% off one item so i figured he'd use it on the highest priced item. well, nope. he didn't. he gave us 30% off the ENTIRE BILL. so then i also used a $25 giftcard that i had and ended up only paying $35 bucks for like 11 shirts and what seemed like a million pairs of flip flops (10 actually). it was great!!!!

so here's something cool that happened today....

i went to try on this cute button down shirt that i got on sale last year. i only got to wear it one time before i was too big for it. well, i tried it on today and guess what? it looks good! not too big anymore! yay!

so despite the fact that i weighed myself today (i just couldn't wait another day until tomorrow) and the scale showed no new numbers, it was still nice to fit into that shirt again and to know i was walking around wearing that xl old navy shirt instead of the previous xxl's.

my eyes have been itching really bad. but there's a ton of pollen going on around here. everything is yellow. literally. so i think it's allergies acting up. it sucks!

well, i guess i'll go get some dinner now.

a little of this and that

so today is monday and isn't that peachy? the day has been going alright i think. had another run in with a cupcake, but this time i only ate about a half of it. but i can't get too excited about that victory because i've come to realize that ruffles chips with philadelphia cream cheese chive and onion dip goes down really well and tastes really great. i know this is prolly a "slider food" and not a good choice, but when i saw that the cheese came in little mini pots i couldn't resist buying them. i also know that i've been taking in more liquid calories than i'm supposed to as i'm on an apple juice kick here lately. tea, too. i'm still drinking water but it's just not as appealing as the tastier stuff. who knew?

yesterday we went for a 25 minute "family walk" and that was nice. today i did another 15 minutes on my elliptical and i was pleased to find that it wasn't quite as hard as the first time i did it. i'm hoping that's a sign that each time will get easier an easier and the i will move up to 20 minutes and so on. i must say though that my calves have been killing me. literally. i'm hoping that will subside soon.

i find it wierd though that i don't "feel the burn" in any other areas other than my calves. is that normal?

i think i was a little deluded about the elliptical machine. i mean, i had all these great memories of absolutely loving the elliptical. but now on my new one, i just dont' find it as great as i remember it being. but maybe that's cuz the last time i "loved it" was almost five years ago and i could do 30 minutes straight on the darned thing with no issues at all. go figure.

my son had issues at school today. a run in with another kid messing with him and a bathroom accident. then another of the latter on the way home. i feel a stomach virus weazeling it's way into our home. sigh! thank god i'm armed with my zofran to protect my band status in case of sudden nausea. still a little nervous about it though.

done

that elliptical kicked my butt for 15 minutes. that was all i could handle. whew!

oh... and the easter bunny has landed.

confessions

forgive me. i have sinned.

yesterday i had a kit kat bar. not a bite. not a piece. a WHOLE one.

today i had a cupcake. chocolate. lavendar tinted whipped cream icing. i sliced it in half.... then ate it. the WHOLE thing.

i feel ever so guilty and bad. i told a friend about it and her outlook is this:

no matter how much you are eating now, it's still way way less than before. you're gonna lose. it's gonna come off. bad choices or good ones, it's going whether you like it or not. and it'll go even more once you start working out more and get some fills.

is she right and i'm wrong? or am i just wrong for eating the naughty goodies?

i can't stand how guilty i feel when i eat something bad.

i also realized last night that seeing people eat sorta grosses me out now. not everyone, but folks who take huge bites and chew with thier cheeks all sticking out. eating foods that are greasy or drippy... seeing folks eat all that makes me wanna hurl. why? i mean, i used to eat like that myself. now i don't. i can't. why am i so disturbed by it? why do i notice it so much?

i got my elliptical today. so excited. ready to go use it.

our house is a mess and the easter bunny comes tonight.

my card

ok.... so here's the info about my card....

when i went for my pre op testing appt with my doctor, they gave me a packet from the makers of lapband. it was yellow in color and it said "you have a lot to look forward to" on the front. it was kinda like a hard cardboard envelope thing.


inside were some brochures about the different stages after the band and before the band.



also inside was this thing that was a temporary card that i was supposed to fill out myself but never did. attached to the temp card was a form to fill out and mail to lapband to get the permanent card.



there was also the option of doing it online at lapband.com and that's what i did. but before you can do it, you have to know from your doc exactly what kind of lapband you have. mine is the lapband ap standard or ap s. then you go online and put in all your info to get your card. i had to put in a serial number off my temp card but i know there was an option that said "i don't have a serial number" so you can prolly get one without having that packet or temp card. or you can ask your doc about it.

it's plastic (like a credit card) and has my information printed on it including a serial number and my name, band date, doctor info and contact info, what to do in an emergency and a note to restaurants.




i would go to lapband.com and see if you can get a card without a serial number. you have to put in all your info like name, band date, doctor and then make sure your doctor is linked with the site and all that. it's pretty cool.