when life gives you...

today has not been a very good day for me. i had a dr's appt with a retinal specialist that i was referred to when i went for my annual eye exam a few weeks ago. it took a million years. it sucked. but the fact of the matter is not good. i have one of two things they say. i either have a brain tumor or pseudotumor. of course, if i have to choose between the two, i want it to be the latter. pseudotumor has the symptoms of a brain tumor but is really just too much or too thick of spinal fluid. it's more predominate in overweight woman of childbearing age. i sure fit the bill there. obviously this has been a lot to deal with. i have to have an mri done to rule out it being a real tumor. then possibly meds if it's pseudotumor. kinda freaked out. but trying to just take things one day at a time and pray and hope for the best.

needless to say my patience and overall mental status has been jacked since i was at that appt today and i haven't been the nicest person/wife/mother for the rest of the day.

got my wii personal trainer game but i got so irritated with the wii i'm not even gonna try it tonight. come to find out i had the game in backwards but damn if it didn't get me all rawled up.

i'm tired and fussy and getting frustrated with teh scale not moving. maybe i should go do a workout to get the scale to move. damn!